Up&Up

What living in The Netherlands and Belgium actually brought it to me? Recently I am thinking about it more and more and every day I realize one new little thing! This morning I woke up already 6 o'clock am, what is crazy since I am deathly tired during week and didn’t go to sleep very early either! But life is just one so I couldn’t resist myself and starting with thinking, checking pictures, answering people and stuff. I have also opened a page which is annoyingly going every day to my e-mail, one would justly called it spam, and he would be right but guess what I don’t mind and sometimes there are some nice articles. Today it was about showing you how you are unique if you are quirky. Blabla mostly but some things lead me to think about some other topics.

During the reading I have realized how much I have changed during the last 4 years. I totally don’t want to evaluate myself and write anything about good or bad way! I am just doing this mental process of putting my thoughts to the words, sentences and maybe it will give some sense. At least to me it probably will, and for the rest? Now I don’t have to care about it.

Since I was living in Amsterdam I love even more if some people are unique and they aren’t scared to show it! I have seen quite many different environment during traveling, meeting people and totally fall in love to the  unique way of thinking, the way how people are dressed in different way, how they are able do stuff without particularly thinking oh my gosh what these or those people would think about me. If you love this - go to Berlin, sit on the street and just observe! Or in subway is fine as well! Observe more and more! Life will give you something back for it! 

Travel and try to understand why people act in their certain way, why they are having this or that attitude to their lives, try to respect others as much possible as you can and guess what again, you will have something back for that! Amazing friends from different backgrounds which will completely enrich your life, you will start seeing basics facts in your life from diff. perspective and your horizon would change greatly! 

Never ever say that you will better give it up than try hard! NEVER! EVER think that you can’t do something if you haven’t even tried!  

Be glad for what you are, be just happy about whom you are and that you are unique in your own special way, don’t feel like you need to please all the time someone, because the thing is (and ye whatever now you are thinking, I believe that)- God loves you exactly how you are! So just smile and calm yourself down! I know there is always room to improve yourself in many ways and please don’t take me wrong I wouldn’t even suggest that I am ideal, but I like myself and I am not afraid to say that! Have you ever worked, dealt, lived, or just spoke with someone who doesn’t like her or himself? Yes? So now you understand...  

Take hard words and situations in your life like a gym! Yes! You hate it in the moment that someone told you something hard, that someone put you down, kick away or anything else, but bear in mind that you fuxking need a gym in your life! What do you think? That everything will go smoothly and you will die without life muscles?! You personally would hate it! You need to grow and being stronger to be able to move in your life, to be able to access higher hills, examinations!

If you once expired what is like to don’t have something in a life, you will appreciate what you have in totally diff. way! You are more grateful for things what you had to work hard for than for stuff which was just given to you without any afford. 

There is only one catch, when you are back and living your normal life back at home you can feel like here it isn’t adventure enough and maybe start complaining, this happened to me as well and I am so sorry for that! Because and now listen! When you feel like complaining about some stupid stuff just remember what you would give for it to be in this position of your life before some certain time! Come on! So how already my children in my class can say: NIET KLAGEN! - don’t complain!

Totally different situation according me is when you really don’t know what to do and you aren’t satisfied with your life and you are eager to find som new impulse in your life and you really trying hard! I hope I will be able to write more about this in the future. Now I am not educative enough by life to tell you much about it. But I still believe that there is time for everything and doesn’t matter in which kind of part of your life you are in now, remember to see the good things about it. It isn’t easy sometimes but I am sure that almost in all situations you can find some light and more or less things which are just so perfect and amazing.